I survived!

My surgery went amazing well and I am feeling pretty darn good.  Does it hurt?  Well duh!  But not nearly as much as I was anticipating.  I thought stairs would be rough but that wasn't too bad either.  The hardest part I think is sitting down and standing up.  But anyway.  Left the hospital, waited upwards of 45 minutes for my meds at the hospital and now I am home sweet home and my sis is here to take care of me.  Have to admit I am tired.  Didn't think I would be this tired today.  Oh well rest is required after surgery.  :) Goodnight all!  I may not knock out yet but I'm going to relax.  Have a great night!

June 26th

Tomorrow, almost today really, is the big day for me.  Tomorrow is surgery day.  I am excited, I am nervous, I am hopeful, I am scared and I am slightly sad.  

I am sad at the thought of not being able to have my own kids, myself anyway.  I would have to have a surrogate.  

I am scared that something will go wrong and that my pain meds won't work. (I hate being resistant to meds).  I am also nervous for these reasons.  I guess I could really lump the two together...I'm nervcred?  I'm scarvous?  I don't know.  Whatever it is...it is.

I am hopeful that I will no longer have these issues and that this in turn will help me lose weight.  Yes, I do know that many people say they gain weight after, but per research I have done on the internet which I have no site for (I think it was WebMD) it said that women gain weight after this surgery due to prolonged periods of not doing anything. Now you may be wondering, hmmmm, why does she hope to lose weight?  This has nothing to do with losing weight, does it?  Well you would be correct, it doesn't.  My theory and hope is two fold.  One, when you take out a uterus, tubes and a cervix, that's a whole lot of tissue!  That's gotta weigh at least a couple pounds right?!  That is my less logical hope.  My second hope/theory is that it will curb my appetite a bit for meat.  You see even though I have had this stupid gushing period for many years now, and I have lost many pints of blood due to it throughout the years, I have never been anemic or lacked iron.  I propose that this is due to my craving for meat.  This being said I hope that after my surgery I will stop craving meat so much since my blood level will even out and I won't need so much iron.  Now honestly, I don't know if this is realistic or not.  I told my doc this theory and she didn't dispute it so I think it gives it merit.  I guess only time will tell.  :)

And I am excited!  I am excited to finally feel like I have control over my body.  I am excited to spend some quality time with my sis who will be taking care of me Friday and Saturday night. (Thursday I spend the night at the hospital).  And I am excited to get to spend time at home for a couple weeks and get some reading done for my Insurance class test in September.  

Now in all honesty we will see how things develop and maybe I will just spend the next two weeks knocked out.  

I printed off a Last Will and Testament form and a Living Will form.  The things you can find online.  I tell ya!  But you have to think of these things before going under the knife.  You can't leave things up to chance...well let me rephrase that, you SHOULDN'T leave things up to chance.  

Anyway I should probably go back to getting my place cleaned up before tomorrow.  Don't want to come home to an obstacle course.  :)

Good night everyone and wish me luck tomorrow.  I'm thinking good thoughts!

Iiiiiii'mmmmmmm baaaaaaaaaack!

It has been way too long since I have posted here.  I apologize for that.  Life took hold of me and wouldn't let go.  So many changes have occurred and so much has happened.  

I switched jobs, planned a bridal shower and a bachlorette party, had decided to let a friend go, moved and fought with family.  I ran out of meds and lost my mind for a hot minute.  And for a while I had been having a hard time being positive and happy.  Been concentrating on the bad and playing victim, thinking why is this happening TO me?!  Feeling overwhelmed and just tired and sad. A few weeks ago I had a self reflection moment and I decided I was done throwing myself a pitty party, I was done playing victim and I was done being sad and pathetic.  I decided to be happy.  Let me tell you it has payed off.  Not only am I actually happy but I was down 2.8 lbs the first week at weigh in.  Needless to say, that made me even happier.  :)  Even when I went up I was only up by one pound and now I am back down 1.4.  It's not a HUGE amount but it's steps in the right direction. 

Tonight I reorganized my fridge to make it more WW friendly.  The way fridges are designed veggies and fruits are hidden in a drawer and let's face it, we forget about them.  We waste money by letting it spoil and we end up eating complete CRAP instead.  I decided to put some drinks and my veggies on top, fruits and eggs below that and the bottom shelf is bread, cheese and meat.  The drawer is now for my alcohol and other crap that really don't need to be out in the open because I should NOT be consuming it that often.  Out of sight and out of mind...I hope anyway!  UFTA!

FINALLY I have been able to schedule my surgery and it's coming up QUICK!  June 26th I'm going under the knife.  Wish me luck folks!  I'm kinda scared.  Didn't realize it was that serious of a procedure.  My sis went in to have her gallbladder removed and she was in and out the same day, I'm gonna be spending a night or two in the hospital and out of work for 3+ weeks.   Sigh.  We will see what develops.  

On a sad note my fishy, Frankie the Fin passed away not long ago.   😥  I decided I can't do fish anymore.  I don't have the best of luck with them.  So I decided to get guinea pigs.  I got them from Craig's List.  A mom and daughter combo.  Super cute.  The mom has warmed up to me but the daughter is still cautious.  

Frankie the Fin...

Mama...

Daughter...

Well ladies and gents I think it's time to say goodnight.  It has been a long day and I am ready for some peace and quiet.