Back to it...

Ok.  So last week and part of this week has been tough.  Last week, work was hard and it kinda kicked me down and around a bit.  Got discouraged and my will did not hold up well.  

This week due to having jury duty I weighed in Monday night instead of Tuesday in the morning.  I know that this is a flimsy excuse but due to the rough week and due to the changed weigh in time I GAINED 1.8 lbs.  I was extremely saddened and upset with myself.  I have a goal and I need to find a healthy way to deal with stress.  Food can't be my crutch.  A sweet treat is ok, but eating it to console your emotions is not a good way to deal with things. 

Now given I am technically still down from when I started but is that good enough?  Not to me.  This week has not started well either but I am going to improve it.  Court is Monday through Thursday and though I can guarantee that I will not be working out those days I can at the very least guarantee Friday and Saturday during this period. My Sundays are always out due to family dinners.  So for the next two weeks(at least) that I am supposed to be in court this is my goal.  Eat better and exercise 2 times a week.  It's by no means a perfect situation but for now this is where I need to start. 

Now on a separate topic, I have also set a new goal for myself in addition to my birthday and my sisters wedding.  My new goal is to be in health to pass the deputy sheriff exam in my area. I have always, since I was a little girl, wanted to be a cop and for some reason when I saw that job listing it hit me how much I want that still.  A friend of my recently took the physical to be a cop and so he filled me in on what I need to shoot for. Attached is a picture of my goal.  I can do this.  I have to do this.  I will do this.  I want to be someone who makes a difference and right now, even though I like my job, I'm not really making a difference. I didn't become a US citizen to be mediocre.  That's NOT acceptable.